There was a moment, a very brief moment, when it felt like I had everything planned out. That moment was right BEFORE my son was born.
And now you’re probably chuckling.
And I probably deserve it.
Oh yes. I had planned that I would have this baby, love and mother him, work from home, strive to be a good Christian and a good wife, and we’d all live happily ever after. When you’re on bedrest, you can get a little delusional, I know.
Instead, God has taken me on a wild journey this year. I never dreamed that I would be the mother of a child who would need major surgery in his first year of life. I had no clue how hard it would be to work with a baby at home, or how long it would take to establish anything resembling a sane routine. I’m nowhere near as competent as some of the ladies in the various homemaking blogs out there, but I’m thankful they exist to inform and encourage me.
And then there’s the other piece of my life that definitely didn’t go according to plan. I’ve always loved to read, but I had no plan to be the one writing. It was that dream I never quite had to courage to take on. And somehow even though it didn’t have a place in that carefully planned life I thought I’d have, it had a place now. I’m enjoying reviewing, thinking, writing, living. I guess the best way to express it is to say I thought I had a plan for what my life would be, but God’s plan is different, and I’m learning to let go of my own plan and follow. And so we grow.
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and so we grow. yes. and it tends to look different then we imagine and yet i think we grow into these moments he draws us to. thank you for sharing.
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Visiting from FMF! I love both the humor and the realness in your post. I don’t have kids, but I can imagine how the circumstances surrounding your little one’s introduction to the world and the subsequent needs associated with that have rocked your world. And yet you stand strong in Him. May you be blessed!
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Thank you!
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Enjoy every precious moment. Life will never be the same; that’s the only plan you can count on! Joining you fromFMF.
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Oh so much truth in this! I think sometimes God uses our children to show us how to let go of our own plans and trust His! I know my children teach me a lot about God and about life. I’d never really thought about my children teaching me (aren’t we supposed to teach them stuff?), but it was something my therapist said to me one day about how his kids had taught him and I realized it was so true. Children are such a wonderful, wonderful joy and blessing and I would gladly give up all my plans in a heartbeat for each of them. God bless you! Stopping by from FMF!
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I think I’m only starting to see how this works, but yes, I do feel like my son has been teaching me to look at the world with fresh eyes.
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Stopping by from FMF! We are neighbors there. So much truth here. We want to make our pwn plans but God has Gods own plans and blueprints for our lives.
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“and so we grow.” <— Yes it seems He is always putting things in our lives that cause us to reach for Him and grow closer in the process.
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You know, those homemaker blogs don’t always tell the whole story. We all start with dreams of how things should be, how we expect them to be. But life isn’t that tidy, as you’ve found out. In fact, it’s downright messy at times. It often goes in a direction we did not expect. But God uses it to stretch and mold us. It’s the best way and the hardest way. So when you see all of that ideal homemaking perfection out there, it might really just be someone trying to live out her shattered dreams, if only on a blog. I’ve seen it time and again. I do appreciate them dreaming, though!
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